Out in the world

      Sorry i haven't posted in a week. A lot has been going on, with only a few weeks left here in California i have been  preparing my stuff for my east coast adventure. I am so excited to get there and see something new. i have been traveling up the west coast seeing friends and meeting new people and enjoying the people i already know and love. i will keep you posted on all my adventures and new projects coming up. thank you as always for reading.

Poem: his window view

   Here is just a little back story on this poem i could help but feel this way after seeing this picture. 

As I look upon him I see the scars

I can't even imagine the pain he endured

Out of the pain he thought he picked love.

But he just ended up wit another heart break.

Selfishness was his only option he thought.

I run my fingers over the scars.

I kiss them hoping to ease his pain

But I feel as if the closer I get the hard he will fall.

The face of an angel but the heart of a monster I told I am.

For him I wish I was different 

My self destructive nature helps no one

I wish for each other we could be different 

But some times I fear he is the gasoline an I am the match.

bad moody days

    i have just been having a weird week. But with weird weeks i always seem to write the most. just trying to get my feelings out. bad moods to me are like poison you have to suck the vein out. i hope every one else is having a better week then me. i'm going to post a dew poems today. just to let it out of my soul and hope that the winds change and bring better days.

Poem for a Friday: the darker side

I can't believe  in myself.
For I am a fool who believed in change.
I thought your words meant something this time.
I guess they are just a useless exchange.
So as I sit here wit egg on my face.
I cry cause I am weak to you.
I am dark on the inside cause of these things.

They tell me that blood is thicker then water.
But so is the poison in my vain.
Although you don't say I owe you my life
You act as so with out any remains

I wish more then anything
We could grow an change
But I now see.
That is only a dream.
So I must move away.
Good luck with life my love.
You truly ruined my day.

my weekly recap

    Its been a long week. this week i finally told my boss the big news and ill share it with you. In month i will be moving to the east coast! i have lived in California my whole life and now i'm venturing out. i want to see more of the world to be a better writer. I think to be a better writer you have to experience things. i will be blogging the whole thing. i hope you stay tune. as always thanks for reading.